Sewing Mishaps

Over Christmas break, in an attempt to keep myself from going crazy from boredom, I made a shirt. It was a lot less traumatizing of an experience than sewing normally is for more; I think I only cried over it once, and that was after a long day of cutting out the pattern pieces. Frustrating stuff, that is. Anyway, it made me think of my last experience with a large sewing project. It went a bit like this:

I had barely enough material for my shirt and couldn’t buy more. I (with a lot of help from my mom) had gotten the pattern pieces arranged just so, so that they all barely fit – including the slight alterations I was making to the neckline. I made sure to cut the upper part of the neckline first so that I wouldn’t forget that I was altering it, then went ahead and cut the other three sides . . . and zoned out and just kept going back around the fourth side, cutting the neckline back to its original position. Oops.

I noticed about halfway through what I was doing, but wasn’t too worried because I figured that my mom, amazing as she is, could fix anything.

“What can I do?” I asked, showing her my mistake.

She tilted her head thoughtfully to the side, about to divulge some perfect solution.

“I don’t know,” she said.

That’s when I began to freak out. But as my mom, amazing as she is, continued to examine my shirt, she came up with a brilliant idea.

“You could sew some lace along the top of the neckline. That should hide the cut. And while you’re at it, you could sew some lace along the sleeves as well.”

So I did. And you know what? It worked so well that I’ve had random people compliment me on this shirt that I messed up. You know what else? It looks fifty times cuter with the lace than it would without it.

I think mistakes are like that. They help you see ways you can make things so much better, whereas if you never made mistakes, you would just keep going, not realizing that while things are good, it is possible – with a little-lot help from you – for them to be simply amazing.

So, the moral of this story is: my mom is amazing.

Oh, and I suppose mistakes being a way to make things even better could also be a moral. Whatev.

New Beginnings

Sunrises are the best aren't they? Beams of light shine through clouds, dispersing the darkness and as the light paints the sky with bright colors, we hear it whisper the hopeful message, " it's a new day, a new start". Little by little we see our surroundings more clearly. Instead of dark shadows, we notice the beauty we are surrounded by. Campers come out of their tent in the early morning light, still layered in clothing and blankets, anticipating the rays of light reaching where they could feel of its warmth. I am reminded of sunrises because today is New Years Day. A day that many associate with resolutions and goals and a new start. I love new beginnings and being able to start fresh, but I don't think it has to happen just once a year. Can you imagine only experiencing the rising sun once a year? We can experience newness and reflection every week as we partake of the sacrament, and everyday as we take time to really study, ponder and pray. In the business of life sometimes you don't take time to see the sunrise. Especially when one happens everyday, it can become just part of the everyday routine. Guess that's why we also have special events like New Years to remind us to keep progressing. Here's to another great year!

Over the summer I had the opportunity to visit Yellowstone National Park with some coworkers. As we were driving along, Heidi, our unofficial tour-guide, mentioned the great forest-fire of ’88, and from there began to talk about the health of the trees today. One thing she said really struck me. In essence:
“The trees now are too close together. Because of this they are able to protect each other from the wind, but that in turn keeps them from becoming strong, and then it’s easy for them to be destroyed by little things such as beetles. When they’re farther apart, they’re less protected from the wind, and so become stronger.”
At least that’s how my brain, always searching for symbolism, remembers what she said. But it made me think: sometimes, when life gets hard, it might seem like we’re on our own. Like there’s no one there who can help us. And while we can always turn to God, I believe that he will only help us as much as we absolutely need. Life is supposed to be difficult; to be so hard we’re not sure how we can make it through. But those are the times when we grow the most; when we’ve been pushed so hard the only way to make it through is to be stronger than we thought we were – and so we become stronger than we used to be.

I remember my first month of college. My first month of living on my own. No parents and only one person that was not a new acquaintance. As much as I loved it, it was so difficult. It was stressful. Really, really stressful. But it taught me to be independent. I learned to be responsible, to be self-disciplined, to get along with roommates. It increased my confidence exponentionally. There was never a time, throughout that whole month – or since then, for that matter – when I was not happy with my decision to move out on my own.

Life is hard. But it’s the hard times that enable us to learn and grow like we were sent here to do. And as we learn to deal with these hard times, our confidence and happiness grow. It is the hard times that make life worth it.

Dead End?

This past weekend I had the opportunity to hike Buckskin Gulch with some amazing friends. While hiking through one of the world's longest slot canyons, we came upon a spot where, looking ahead, it seemed there was a dead end. Our limited vision showed no signs of the canyon continuing. However, we had faith and continued walking towards the supposed "dead end". As we did so, we found the canyon curving sharply to the right. It indeed continued, opening more beautiful canyon to our eyes. This happened a few more times during our adventure and I couldn't help but think of the scripture 1 Corinthians 10:13, that the Lord would "make a way to escape". I thought about how sometimes you feel like you're doing all you can to move forward in life, but the future doesn't look the way you think it should look. You wonder what you're supposed to do, why the Lord's put a "dead end" in the way. If you stop moving forward, trusting in the Lord, you'll never see the escape, or the way that the canyon curves to allow you to progress in the journey. During Relief Society on Sunday we were talking about Paul's conversion. As we read Acts 9:6, I noticed how the Lord only told Paul to go to the city, He didn't tell him the whole plan. So it is with us. The Lord gives us line upon line, one step at a time. Once we get there, He can tell us more. I think if we were to hear the whole plan it might be a little overwhelming.

I came across this commercial a day or so ago that demonstrates our need to move forward. Trapped on an Escalator - YouTube. When we find that things aren't going the way we think they should, maybe we should re-evaluate what we can do. Sometimes the Lord expects us to find our own solutions because we have the ability to make the difference. The Lord can work miracles in our lives, but sometimes we're waiting so much on those BIG miracles that we miss seeing the small miracles- the power that He's already given us and our ability to make our circumstances better. So keep moving forward!

The Value of Adventure

Presentations – BYU–Idaho

We're Not That Different in the End

A lot has changed in my life over the last couple of weeks. I up and moved to Page, Arizona where I will be teaching 2nd grade in a school with 60% Navajo students. I haven't really had experience with Navajos, but I love learning about different cultures and am excited about the new adventure. Today I was talking to a friend who told me of a trip he took with a service group to a Navajo reservation. He related how there were gang-type groups of Native Americans who would graffiti the walls and how the government had paid money for all of the walls to be repainted every year. That several years previous, the government had given them the materials necessary to build fences and none of the places had fences. How they wouldn't get up and work to fix anything. Instead they sat around complaining about what they didn't have while the volunteers worked hard to get them what they felt they needed. Now I'm not saying Navajos are lazy and ungrateful, I haven't met any yet that are and I know that there are all types in all cultures. But, I began to think about what he told me, I realized that we are not immune from that type of behavior. The Lord gives us everything we need to create a successful and joyful life yet, there are times when we sit there and complain about what we don't have and how we deserve more. We're the ones sitting, watching and expecting the Lord to do all the work while we reap the benefits. Everything we have comes from the Lord and we don't always choose to focus on what we have or the fact the Lord has helped us obtain it. Instead we're wondering why certain things have or haven't happened in our lives. I told this friend that some of the Navajo here don't even have running water and he responded, "I don't feel sorry for them, they can get it if they want to." It made me wonder if I'm missing out on any blessings that are available to me because of my stubbornness. The Lord has promised us a lot more than running water if we but come unto Him, are we doing our small part to obtain it? If I by chance, happen to meet a Navajo who is like me friend described, I'll be able to relate. Because in the end, we're not all that different.

Holes

Here's a writing piece I wrote my freshman year of college.
I remember it as a perfectly warm day in May. I felt some nervousness as I situated myself in the kayak and looked down the river. This would be my first river run in a kayak. Good thing my experienced dad would be beside me the whole time. He scanned the river, "See that hole straight across from you? That's a nasty hole, I don't think you're ready for it, but the best path for these rapids is on the other side of that hole. So what I want you to do," he continued, "Is to ferry on up the river and get tot he other side of the hole. Just don't hit that hole." He warned me.
I nodded and looked at the rapids I would have to face. Excitement and nervousness filled my body. I slid myself down from the bank, into the river and began paddling hard. All too soon, however, I noticed the rapids quickly approaching and realized that I wouldn't make it far enough across the river. I was headed right for the hole! I turned by boat forward so I could at least meet my challenge face on. As I saw my opposition, a sheer look of terror spread across my face, "could I make it through this?" I wondered. The waves came crashing around me, and I felt the exhilaration of kayaking a river. After the rapids, I looked back through what I had gone through, "I went over that" I thought, amazed. "If I did that, maybe I can conquer this river!" My dad caught up with me, I was still breathing hard, trying to calm myself down after all the excitement. I turned to him with a big smile, "That was fun!" I exclaimed. I've learned that the river of life is much the same way; it's not always smooth going, but the rough spots make it interesting, You may be frightened at the sight of a big challenge, but after it's all over, you look back and realize how good that experience was for you. These holes in life are where you gain courage and grow the most.